Some Experiences Worth Mentioning

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Every time I enter that half-opened Gate of Peadiatrics ward II with  (terhee Topee wala chacha saying salam sahab) I feel like I am entering an entirely Different World, A world where angels are sent to get Cured, to regain their redness & freshness.

Through my clinical rotations(approximately 24 months now), I have been a sort of pendulum swinging among different specialties in my supposed to do, But whenever I would get chance to have contact with sick children, My affection towards this field would suddenly burst out and this  pendulum’s swing would suddenly halt and the only and only thing I would to love to do then is to learn their problem and having utmost desire to solve them.
Some wonderful experience in Peadiatrics ward are worth mentioning here.For when after long long years I would be reading this post, this would suddenly bring a breeze of pleasure and Love to me.
I can remember that little fairy of 4 years (a little pakhtun patient) whom I drew some fishes and aeroplane on a paper(although I don’t draw that good), during my ward test. She allowed me to do clinical examinations and would not allow me leave her as the bell ring to change the station. Ward test soon ended, I picked her up in my arms and when I was supposed to leave she denied even to go to her mother.(Girl i cant forget you for whole of my life).
Little Afzal is also hard to forget, who kisses your hand every time You shake it  with him and give You such an innocent and pure smell,that will take away all your worries.

Cute ritika (Oh my God), I still wonder how a Four month girl Could start crying immediately after seeing injection being filled from the ampule, reflecting that these angels do watch us, do feel what is Happening around them.


Jawaid a 5 year baby boy diagnosed with Transverse Myelitis with recently developed Limb weakness, Despite having severe pain in his  Limbs whenever he tries to move them, You just once way the boy and notice the response, His eyes will depict Hope and Broad smile , Bravery. (Bravo man!! You would soon be alright).

Every time I think Of their Illness, My heart turns heavy and i melancholic, But the virtues these Bravos manifest, makes me all right, Their cuteness, affection , Love, bravery and above all “Hope” gives me immense strength.
Dont know, where Life will take me, what will I be doing in my future, But These feelings, these moments have secluded a Place in my life and will always be there with bringing an aroma of gratitude and Love whenever I recall my memories 🙂 🙂


Happiness :)

Happiness :)

Happiness is nothing but absence of worries and Desires, “It is Something to Feel Not Acquire :)”

A permanent sensation of Gratitude and happiness can only be achieved by being Ur self , not letting worldly troubles masking ” YOU” for “it lies inside u :)”

Sagar Athwani,


MY Love – My Sain Baba

215515_155603051169485_5024349_nI can clearly remember that 1.30 p.m of “May -2000”  a Highly charged crowd Of disciples seeing off their spiritual Leader-“SAIN BABA”((Sain Chandu Ram Sahib- respectably named as Sain Baba by his Disciples , is my spiritual Leader , My love , My Guide and someone whom I can not Define In Words)) ,chanting, with tears rolling out of their eyes. Me, a 8 year boy then, standing on a bench (so that i could see him behind the people), although did not know much about him, started chanting too,with  a spontaneous cry.
What made everyone cry when he left and celebrate whenever he Came to Pakistan From India ???? !! He must have Qualities, some qualities that made him unique and adorable!!
As Time passed I came to know few of them I would love to share with every one.
1- Listening to everyone’s Issue calmly and relaxing them by suggesting them best possible.
2-Loving everyone despite being aware of their flaws (I personally like this quality the most-not stop loving despite being aware of someone flaws).
3-Humility- My Baba Sain is renowned for this. Not even a second of arrogance despite having thousands of disciple who could do anything for him once he orders…
4- Knowledge – Oh my God, There is not anything that My Baba has left to study for tomorrow, still he reads every today even at this age of 67.Spread of knowledge (in religious terms- “Satsang”), he has been doing for last 5 decades covering every aspect of Religion, spirituality, socialism and daily life..
5-Tolerance- Even If someone said something unethical and unacceptable, they best response would be a smile and praying in his Favor , 🙂
At this odd hour of night (whom i believe are “rich in thoughts ” hours of the Day), I wished to write few Lines in the praise of My “Sain BABA”, he has Blessed me with so much.
As Days are passing, I have started Listening about his health issues , I wish he may have a wonderful safe and sound Life and He may spread love and knowledge as he has been doing since last 5 decades.
“I Love u My BABA “     may u Always be Smiling and Spreading Love…..

Sagar Athwani,

A visit to Dar-ul-Sukun (special Children Home).

(Exploring the Innocence)

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What I Have started sharing with u guys is one of the most touchy visits I ever paid anywhere – A visit to Special Children Home (Dar-ul-sukun)..

It was a Fine cloudy Tuesday morning, with it slightly raining ,We had Planned to Visit “Dar-Ul-Sukun” as DIF (Dowites innovative Forum) Community service project.

Journey started with a special sense of pleasure and Gratitude , as if some mystic force was keeping our mood elevated and making us feel the warmth of memorable moments waiting for us ahead. (They say “when u move in nature’s direction, it is only when u are at peace) . Reached there and what we saw was something, someone only could imagine of .” A Garden full of Children Playing, partying , enjoying and Spreading the happiness everywhere. I could Feel the aroma of Joys , celebrations and Love everywhere.

Rumi Says, “ Mature are those who are Free of Desires” & we were amongst the most mature people of the world , who did not hesitate talking to stranger as if whole universe belongs to them and they  to attitude problem , no shyness conveying their emotions ,  rejoicing even tiny moment and let not slip a chance of joy slipping out of their Hand.

They welcomed us with Big Smiles on their innocent faces , as if we were their Friends since Decades,,,…. May be that’s why they were called special Because they had special power to interpret the language of universe (Language of Love and Smiles).

They were so full of talent – we were privileged to meet a Medalist Athlete “Ali” and s extraordinary “Raja”- The man’s vault was full of Appreciation certificates and Medals-  Raja!! u made me feel depressed for a while boy afterall I was a worldly man 😛 lolz.

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   Above all they were owner of natures most beautiful Gift “Innocence”….Ashfaque Ahmed writes in his zaviyawhen we Die , God shall ask to show the innocence he (God) had blessed us with , we will be showing our Degrees and Achievements but nothing would be acceptable but innocence” ,those children had maintained that blessing and if it is the case may be they have a better world ahead and as per Rumi were“The mature most”.

                                                         Anything that purifies your heart is a right path , and yes we were on right path , we were getting cleaned inside , the greatest favor those “specials” did to us was gifting us some moments full of innocence and carefreeness and secluding us a special place far away from the busy world of Trade and Diplomacy…… I was “myself” there without having feigned seriousness and toughness ,without any fear and Doubt about my Identity, simply “Me”

It does not make me feel hesitated calling them special because they were so special Indeed (They were how they were sent to the word-carefree, pure and innocent)

The visit had left an everlasting impression on my life, I was privileged to witness a world I could only imagine of,,,,,,,,

If ever u Get a chance to visit a place like this , seize it, Believe me It will make u start discovering you and will render u “yourself” with all worldly masks removed ..  

Sagar athwani